Today is the 19th anniversary of my mom’s passing.
I can say that it HAS gotten better over the years, but I still remember this day sadly.
I had my first child in March of 90, my mom graciously agreed to watch him while I returned to work (bummer in itself, as anyone who remembers their first childs birth will also remember how difficult it was to leave them)
Anyhow, she watched him every day, Monday through Friday and loved him and played with him and was a second mom to him. Unfortunately, he was only 9 months old when she passed. And I was 7.5 mos pregnant with my daughter, who (after three boys) would be HER first granddaughter.
I was heartbroken on that day, I had spent time with her and had told her I loved her and appreciated all she did for me, so at least i didn’t have regrets of what I “should have” said to her while she was here.
But, my dad passed when i was 2 years old, so she was the only parent I had, and we were close. It was pretty devastating. (and awfully sad for me when I gave birth to Corinne, 6 weeks later, without my mommy)
So I talk about her aLOT to my kids – I believe that this keeps her alive, if only in memory. They know all the stories I do, and feel as if they really knew her.
If you have a good relationship with your mom (because I know so many do not) then treasure the time you share together so there will be no regrets when she passes.
Oh, and keep me in your thoughts and prayers today, if you don’t mind.
I still feel like an orphan


























































