bittersweet day
October 10, 200710/10/07
Today SHOULD be a very happy one for me. Twenty years ago at half past ten in the morning, I got married. I remember the excitement and butterflies I had that morning. I was up WAY before dawn, so nervous for the journey I was about to embark upon. I thought I had found Mr. Right. I loved him with every ounce of my being. We had a wonderful ceremony, a beautiful reception. The entire day was magical to me.
Fast forward twenty years later. My marriage is over. My “other” has been incarcerated for going on two years now. There were many things I was willing to overlook and forgive, but sometimes, there are things you can’t let go of. Loss of trust and love is a big one.
Since he’s been gone, I’ve become a stronger, more self-reliant person, and that’s a good thing. But I always thought it would be such a wonderful milestone to reach twenty years together. And it’s not to be. So while I treasure the memories of what was, I have to be realistic and look forward to what will be – and it’s a future that won’t include him.
Hugs for you. The 10th is a hard day for me too, my gramma would have been 90 this year on that day, but remembering her birth also means remembering her death. Hope you did something for you on Wednesday.